I Don’t Believe in Ascension…
For the smarties in the room- I’m not talking in the “Byzantine-era Art” sense, but more in the loud, collective hyperdrive push for “higher frequencies,” “5D winners,” and “ascension symptoms.” None of that stirs with me anymore.
I no longer believe in “highest timelines”. I don’t think “ascension symptoms” are what we think they are. I don’t believe in a race to a magical 5D dimension where I’m the winner and you are a 3D loser. I don’t believe in “Best and Highest”.
I’m deconstructing and de-conditioning from hierarchy, and all of the above is hierarchy. Let’s get into it…
Consciousness- existence- is nothing and everything and infinite and it keeps expanding. Doesn’t make any sense, but that is where we are. An infinite everything that keeps expanding can’t exist on a linear model. Hierarchy is a linear model.
Every time I hear someone say “We have to raise the planet’s vibration,” it feels like violence. It is violence. There is no liberation there… it feels more like that old crown, that outdated monarchy that still secretly lives inside of us. The same energy that fuels “I’ll save you” is mirrored in a deep, aching desire to be saved.
Elon Musk also thinks he's out to save us all.
So why is he delusional and we are not?
These words may be landing harsh but it’s because there is a deep tenderness and ache underneath: we don’t need to be saved, and we don’t need to be doing the saving. We don’t need to transcend this reality to find something better. The Universe is a vibrating poem:
80% mathematical patterns
20% chaotic, uncontainable love
Wild and holy explosions of light that only look like order in hindsight.
This Universal Math is less like a code to crack and more like a series of patterns to be in awe of. This chaotic love is less terrifying-deity-to-appease and more like an invitation to relax and release, because we were never in control anyway.
Ascend where? Where are you trying to go that is any more magnificent than this right here?
We think the world will be better when there is no war because we don’t want to have to tackle the war that is inside of us. We think the world will be better when there is no poverty or sickness or suffering because we aren’t willing to face all the ways we deprive one part of us to feed another, or how we reject certain ways of being in order to feel a little safer, or how we wrestle against our own evolution rather than move with the waves of grief that steward change.
If we can get the world to ascend, then maybe we’ll just be swept along with it. If I could just work the pieces right and lock into my own magical ascension, maybe everything I’ve ever struggled with and suffered from will magically be wiped clean.
Salvation. It’s in every religious model. A clean slate. A fresh start. It’s all too ugly, let’s flood the globe and call it a reset.
The polarity to Ascension is integration: all of it worthy, every gnarly bit. Energy never created or destroyed, simply moving in and out of form. Everything that you come from remains a part of you, in new and emergent ways. Everything that you most despise brought into the fold so that it’s wisdom and brilliance can be revealed.
Nothing wasted. No fixed agenda. A curious unfolding of the single soul and the collective Soul. A forever conversation between you and All-That-Is.
Love that is truly Total. Chaos that is like the Wild Mustang. A Mystery deserving of our awe.
I don’t believe in Ascension. I don’t believe in a Highest Timeline that I am aiming for. I believe in the curious unfolding of my soul- moment to moment. I believe in composting all that I’ve been rather than rising beyond it. I believe in the mess of things. I believe this Earth- this planet- is high and holy and deserving of our full presence and devotion.
You don’t need to ascend. You are here. You did it. It is done.
xo
Julia
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