A Pattern I’m Seeing…
I was with some pretty tremendous rage and grief in my body this week…
… for a pattern that I’ve been tracking for a quite a while, yet seems to be hitting a crescendo in many of us lately.
We think if we can figure out “why” something happened, we can prevent it from happening again.
We think if we can ascertain “why” or “how” something will be useful to us, it is worth our time.
We think our rational mind should be the one to lead our progress.
It’s bullshit. And it’s wasting a lot of our time and energy and resources.
Here is where usually it would be considered appropriate to link an article about how researchers are discovering what mystical traditions has been saying for millenia. I am not going to do that.
About three years ago I had a profound teaching experience with some very special mushroom friends who showed me how the curious exploration of an organism is the most efficient use of it’s energy and resources, while also gathering and integrating the most comprehensive data. I am sure we could find an article that backs up this teaching but I’d rather not offend the mushrooms in that way. I trust what they show me.
Like all good teachings that come from the most ancient teachers, integration is a ripening that has not set rules of time. This particular teaching seemed to really ripen in me this past month. Three years. Slow and low doesn’t sell that well in our current capitalistic hamster wheel, but man- I wouldn’t trade this texture of somatic knowing for anything. I’ll never fall for the promise of drive-thru evolution again.
The me who first received this teaching and the me who writes to you right now feel like wildly different beings. The me who received that teaching was desperate and grasping to know that I was “on my path” and “pursuing my highest calling”. The mushrooms gently chuckled and kind of sighed… a bit of a grief in that sight… “oh, we don’t see things in that way”.
“We don’t see things in that way”. That way being the race to the top, the race to the “right path”, the race to our “dharma”. They corrected me on the dharma bit, even- “dharma IS the curious unfolding… there is no set way”.
There is no set way. We have blueprints of prosperous potential, and yet the nuances along the way are emergent. There is no “wrong” if everything is information being encoded back into the whole.
So much energy and force was lost in my years of gripping onto “getting it right”.
So much energy and force was lost in my times of trying to figure out “why”.
I know now that life is not a video game to be won, but my body IS a quantum computer that can synthesize data- through felt experience- in much more elegant ways than my mind ever could.
I’m not being shy about reminding you of the VITAL BLUEPRINTS group sessions that we are currently running weekly because I believe it may be one of the most powerful ways of engaging in this work right now.
Why? Because your body & soma hold the blueprints. And because in group sessions you don’t have the chance to get stuck in your mental loops trying to verbally process what you are experiencing.
The patterns we’ve been working in these group sessions are synthesizing all of the unprocessed information and wisdom that has been gumming us up. The Energy invites us to get out of the way (mentally) and let something outrageously efficient and organic take over.
For all of us- to some degree- our minds have been leading the charge because that is how we have been acculturated. We’re many generations ill in this way. The mushroom also gave me a teaching about this but we’ll save that for another time.
The change we are seeking is not in the mind. It is not in your “mindset work”. It is not in your analyzing. It is not in the abyss of our '“whys” and “hows”.
The change we are seeking is in revitalizing the blueprints that lie in wait in our souls and soma. The change we are seeking is in waking the wild gods within us.
Join us this Thursday (and every Thursday) for VITAL BLUEPRINTS. Register even if you can’t attend live, or purchase one of the previous activations.
June is PRIMAL MAGIC anniversary month so use code RADICALAWAKENING for $50 off. This is a comprehensive Energy Activation and an awakening into a field of mystical relationship. Access teachings and practices across multiple traditions, on-demand and at your own pace. Join in June and get a 1:1 intake and curated curriculum path from me via our community Slack channel. Different than a usual “course”, you can think of this more like a resource bank of teachings and connection points to continually activate and reconnect you to Energy and Spirit. I will be adding new content this month as well.
Don’t let your wild and curious unfolding get inhibited by whys and hows any longer. Insane times call for radical new ways, and lucky for us they are beautiful and soft and generous and generative.
xo
Julia
Curious but don’t know where to start?
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